Kesha hasn’t said too much about her two month rehab stay earlier this year, but she’s beginning to open up about her struggles.
The 27-year-old singer checked herself into a Chicago facility back in the winter for an eating disorder, and since that time, she has expressed that she needs to learn how to love herself and be healthier.
As of late, Kesha has shown up on a few red carpets looking better than ever! She also looks healthy and happy on the new reality show Rising Stars!
Now, the pop superstar has penned a heartfelt honest essay for Elle UK magazine about her time in rehab, and her new outlook on life.
“Sure, I’ve written songs about partying, but my dirty little secret is that I’m actually incredibly responsible,” she explains (via Billboard). “I take my music and career very seriously, and certainly didn’t land in this situation from partying. But I was cut off from the outside world and I imagined people making up stories at a time when what I really needed was support.”
Kesha goes on to describe her passion for music, and coping with being bullied while in school. Signing her record contract at 18 only brought on more pressure.
“The music industry has set unrealistic expectations for what a body is supposed to look like, and I started becoming overly critical of my own body because of that,” she writes. “I felt like people were always lurking, trying to take pictures of me with the intention of putting them up opine or printing them in magazines and making me look terrible.”
Kesha has written powerful songs like “Warrior” and “We R Who We R” but after awhile she felt like those anthems were turning into lies because of her personal struggles:
“I felt like a liar, telling people to love themselves as they are, while I was being hateful to myself and really hurting my body. I wanted to control things that weren’t in my power, but I was controlling the wrong things. I convinced myself that being sick, being skinny was part of my job. It felt safer somehow.”
It’s so sad that so many girls become obsessed with their looks. Thankfully, it seems like Kesha is learning to let that go…
“I knew I was ready to leave when I’d gained enough confidence to get on a plane knowing there would be paparazzi at the airport at the other end. I was right – they were there. But this time, when I saw the pictures, I felt OK.”
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